Fantasy
The crowds have gathered there are familiar faces all around. Peering from the crowds are gawking little eyes. None in which you can make out from the ladder. There are cheers in excitement to see what the outcome will be. Then there are the loud whispers that chant "What is wrong with her" , "She's crazy", "She doesn't know what she is doing , this will never work out". For a second you use the loud whispers as a source of motivation. Telling your self "I know what they think but I know I can do this". Your chasing after a dream with no end in sight. The crowd chants and screams as you step up to the platform. The umbrella is opened and there is no looking back the first foot slowly touches the rope. Your ankle twitches a little and the cool breeze traces the outline of your body as it blows around you. The slightest light wind sends a trace of doubt in your mind. A few steps and it feels like a dream. Nothing could be more intoxicating and invigorating then the rush of doing the impossible. Then just as you have the flow down the cool calm breeze turns rocky. The rope starts to shake and your grounding has now begun to fail you.
Reality
Tight rope walking is a lot like chasing dreams. The performer steps up on a tensioned wire that's held down at two points. With the end not close in sight a tool usually an umbrella is held in order to manipulate and maintain balance. How often are we chasing things on a tensioned level? What is grounding and manipulating us? I chase after the longings of my heart knowing that at some point along this act I'll lose balance. I never understood how can one maintain a grounding with so much going on around. "Seek, inquire of and for the Lord, and crave Him and His strength (His might and inflexibility to temptation); seek and require His face and His presence [continually] evermore". -Psalms 105:4.. As I try to figure it out I think of Psalms 105: 4. What is it I am craving and desiring that requires ME, irrelevant ME to feel as though I must give all of myself for that will in return not give it self for me.. A reality check is needed.. For my Lord must always be my tight rope and umbrella throughout this life. If ever I feel like I'm slipping, falling, the chants of the nay sayers or the thoughts in the depths of my head doubt my progress and how far I have come it is not for me to manipulate and try to find my own grounding, for my Lord has always searched after and found me. "What man of you, if he has a hundred sheep and should lose one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the wilderness (desert) and go after the one that is lost until he finds it"? Luke 15:4
