Stage Fright

So I am crushing bad... Do I like the feeling No not really. The vulnerability of making a fool of yourself and the unknown is not really fun. Although being excited when I see your face and looking forward to awkward moments is cool. Its like I have a secret and your not in on it. Would it still be fun if you were to find out? Running around looking out for you like a little girl on the playground is a little fun but also extremely nerve wrecking!

Fantasy
So Im back stage , all the anticipation of getting on stage is consuming me. I rehearse my lines over and over while putting on my foundation. As the brush strokes my face I wonder if I'll forget how to act. How to show emotion and  be genuine. I wonder if the audience will be able to see straight through me and realize my flaws. Maybe they will be able to tell that this is something new and I just started acting.  I put on my lipstick and smile. A dash of perfume and im off.. A silent prayer asking God to help guide me. Then it's LIGHTS, CAMERA and ACTION!!! Except I went through those lines a million times, acted out every bad scenario and you did not show.. Oh well maybe tomorrow night. Yes I think maybe tomorrow you will make the show, I only hope this show will be playing that long...